I found 'God' at a young age, around five, if my memory serves me. It was a typical discovery, really. Church, family always talking about Him, preachers my mother listened to on the radio. But even then, something wasn't quite right. I fought my doubts for years. They finally caught up with me, though, and now, my experience of 'god' is quite different.
Here’s something you may not know. The word “God” is not found in Hebrew, Aramaic, Greek or Latin Bibles. It’s uncertain but the word may derive from old Indo-European languages, particularly Persian and might possibly come from Pagan sources.
What's in a name?
The name of God, biblically speaking, has been a source of disagreement for centuries. The word God is not really a proper noun; rather, it's a title. For the most part, that symbol has been applied to an enigma: a loving, caring Creator/Father, as well as a vengeful, jealous and seemingly power hungry dictator. To name, then, is to seek to define, and hence, to limit by the definition. Christ (anointed), Buddha (awakened), Prophet (news bearer)—all titles, not names. A capital letter does not a deity make!
Now, it’s not necessary to give up the word. But it is important to remember to see it as a symbol, not a name. In my life, I now use the word God to represent Mystery, the Source of All That Is, the Ultimate Unnameable, Undefined, Unlimited, and Everywhere Present.
Deny it, reject it, believe as you choose. Still, God as described by the religions is probably weak at best, delusional at worst.
You now have a choice to see it differently.
One Power, One Presence, One Energy, One Reality, One Life, and that Life is your life, my life. Right Now.
Heresy? Perhaps, doctrinally and dogmatically speaking, but it's a much more expansive way, in my view, to experience the universe. And if I name it anything, I name it Love.
I am grateful.
"There are only two feelings--love and fear. There are only two languages--love and fear. There are only two activities--love and fear. There are only two motives, two procedures, two frameworks, two results--love and fear. Choose today which one you will serve." (Attributed to Australian cartoonist Michael Leunig)